What’s the Point?

Posted: January 2, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Ever since I began this journey I can recall so many poignant moments, either wonderful or dreadful. Like the afternoon I was told for the very first time I had cancer, or when I was able to share my testimony on a Youngstown news broadcast, or when I had marrow sucked from my bones, or, this being the most vivid, my first healing and the Promise that followed. But one memory I sometimes entertain, either in pain or reflection, is the memory of me lying in my bed, the smoldering hot summer after I had been diagnosed for the first time. Night or day, it did not matter to me, I laid sprawled on top of my covers, hoping for the weak breeze of my ceiling fan to cool me,  spewing my guts from the chemotherapy and burning with agony over my swollen knee where the tumor was. I whispered to Him, “God, please, kill me now.” I was going to turn fifteen that July.

That memory still sticks to me as if it had happened yesterday. During that bout, my whisper changed to a more darker version as my treatment drudged on, “God, let this cancer kill me.” And with that constant thought I began to actually believe what I was thinking was the truth. I would never finish high school, never go to college, never get married, and on the sad musings went. I even wrote the itinerary for my own funeral. I made sure to make it a memorable one so I could drain out every tear from the mourners.

I was quite lost, confused, and hurt during that year. Praise God He rescued me before I did anything drastic. I didn’t realize it then, but I was searching, asking the question, “What’s the point of living? Why do I have to do this? Why? Why? Why?” And I question, what normal, rational person has not thought this at least once in their lifetime? I shared my specific example of how this question can wiggle it’s way into the mind. But for thousands of years, humans have thought, rationalized, and debated this point. What is the point of our existence?

The modern atheist pronounces the common theme that “We are born. We live. We die. That’s it.” That is the their answer to this inborn question, that life is meaningless. Don’t worry, I’m not going to go into a speech debating this point, but I find that three-fourths of this saying is true. Now let me explain; I agree with them that when we live, we acquire earthly things. Wealth, power, cars, even family. But when we die all of those things will have been for naught. In the Bible, King Solomon wrote a whole book on this very thought. The second verse of Ecclesiastes sums it up:

“‘Meaningless! Meaningless!’, says the Teacher. ‘Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.'”    -Ecclesiastes 1:2

To read over this verse, and even the whole book, one could think that this seems quite dismal and depressing. Does the Bible really say this? Yes, it does. However, we have only been looking at life skin deep. Understand, there is so much more that goes on in our hearts and souls that many never even realize it. The seeds we sow in this life will be the crops we reap after we die. See, our bodies may die and all the things we worked so hard to get will be equal to nothing.

But our souls will live on. This brings us to a point. What have you been living for? Have you been wasting up your life only looking for the things that will make you happy? Or have you been living the True life God intended for you; to serve and honor Him. To love Him and to love all those around you, even if it means giving up everything you have here on earth. Jesus said these are two of the most important commands we are to live by. Every single choice we make has an impact on how we live and where we will go after we die; to be with the Lord or into eternal punishment.

The urban missionary who lives in Detroit devotes all that they have in order that others may know what it means to live. Even if it means giving up money, energy, time, and even their own personal safety on a daily basis. Many may see them as fools. But God sees them, and so many others like them past and present, as heroes. They are the ones that will reap the greatest after death.

A very deep question, I know. I haven’t even scratched the entirety of the true answer. But I can say that I no longer ask for death because I know that whatever happens, death or life, I hold a Truth that nothing can take away from me. And this is where I find solace and peace. Do I make mistakes? Heaven help me should I deny it. I am a terrible sinner. But God is merciful and loves me so much. And He loves you just as much no matter what choices you have made in the past. You see, Satan will be the one to remind you of all the terrible junk you have done. But God is the one who reminds you of all you could be. And it is never too late to listen to God and follow.

Life is not pointless. So live like it has a point. God bless.


  1. Tina DelSignore says:

    Hey Nick, this is Dante’s sister again…the English teacher lol. I just want you to know that I sat down today to grade ALL the papers I have piled up and procrastinated finishing over break. I checked my email (again stalling) and saw your newest post. Reading your thoughts, it brings my life into perspective, and I realize this pile of work is a privilege. I teach at a school where some of my classes are rough kids from the city, and sometimes I wonder why I got into this field. Thanks for the inspiration. Keep writing!!!

  2. Margie/Mama says:

    As we know, God definitely has a purpose for your life; and I, perhaps, catch a glimpse of it when I read your writings. For now, let me just say, “Thank you” for following his call.

  3. Kathleen Smith says:

    thanks Nick for the reminder that life is precious. So look forward to your messages of truth. Love and appreciate your optimism.

  4. Seth says:

    Thanks man. I needed to hear this.

  5. Darren Abraham says:

    Funny, I have been overwhelmed with the thought “all is vanity” (kjv). How the stuff and even non material things we get so worked up about is just vanity or meaningless and how what we should be concerned about is usually a side thought. God has a purpose for you brother keep it up!

  6. Pastor Patti says:

    Wow! I needed to hear that Nick, very well said! Can I print this? I want to pass it out to . Keep worrying these inspiring words, God is using you in a mighty way. And again, thanks

  7. Pastor Patti says:

    Oh by the way…even us strong Pastors get tired and discouraged. I was seriously questioning my effectiveness here and throwing the thoughts around about quitting ( I wouldn’t but the thoughts were there)…then I read your post. You made me cry. I have some quiet time coming up this month, I need to refresh and pray and realize that I may never feel like what I do is worth anything, but maybe, just maybe, it is.

  8. Leeann Rawlings says:

    You truly are an inspiration. Wise beyond your years……Stay strong and keep writing.

  9. Joyce Brandt says:

    Yes, Nick, our life definitely is not pointless. God has a plan for each of us, although we often question it. You have a wonderful testimony to share. I have been praying for you as have so many others and will continue to lift you up to our ultimate healer, Jesus!

  10. Nancy says:

    Thanks for restoring my faith…has dwindled the past couple months loosing my partner in crime…it is lonely here on earth without him….. Thank you!

    • Wright Paul says:

      I just read your blog on What’s The Point: It was inspiring to say the least; I really appreciated it and it was an encouragement to me to keep on going on. You are in my heart and prayers. I know what you have been through, and are now going through has been very difficult. I pray that God will use you in a mighty way to win souls to Him.

      I love you and continue to pray for you.

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