The First Step

Posted: November 19, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Having cancer is not necessarily a bad thing. Having cancer and not knowing Jesus is a bad thing. And through this blog, I intend to prove why.

I was fourteen when the nasty thing struck. Just ending my eighth year of schooling and having thoughts of joining the track team the school year after, even though I’ve never played any sports. It first started as a tumor in my right knee (medically speaking, the distal end of the femur). I started having some pain there and brushed it off as growing pains or maybe something I did in gym class. But by the time the pain disabled me to where I could not walk, I finally went to the doctor’s for scans. The news came fast and hard, that I had a cancerous lump in me, and after being juggled about by a few doctors, I finally came to the oncologist who told me that I had stage four aevoular rhabdomyosarcoma. And the icing on the cake was that I only had 20-30% chance to outlive this thing.

I did. In June of 2008, just a few weeks shy of my sixteenth birthday and over a year since I was diagnosed, God reached His hand down and preformed what we call the miraculous during a youth group missions trip in Toledo, Ohio. A biopsy a week later confirmed that the original tumor, plus two other metastasises (spots where cancer has spread), were completely gone. That day that He healed me, He also gave me the promise that I would be healed and cancer free until the day when I go to meet Him. He also gave me this word as His promise:

“I will not die but live and proclaim what the LORD has done” Psalm 118:17

I returned to high school, graduated, and moved to Minneapolis, Minnesota, to study ministry at North Central University.  I returned home after my freshman year there with a very familiar and devastating pain in my right knee. It seems, as they told me, that the massive amounts of radiation I received during my bout with the Big ‘C’ caused another Big ‘C’ to return to the area. This one they called osteosarcoma. That was last spring and since then I have had my share, again, of chemotherapy and also amputation and multiple sites of mets (metastasises). I have to look forward to is a major surgery on my lower abdomen after Thanksgiving, another surgery before Christmas, and 6-7 weeks of straight radiation after the New Year.

With this first step, I hope to document all that will happen, physically and spiritually, with hopes that you, someone you know, or anyone will find the hope that I see in this evil existence; where Satan means to kill, Jesus means to have life.

If interested, you can do a multiple of things. You can subscribe directly to this blog with your email and receive updates or follow me on Twitter with the username, @TheCzarNicholas, both of which you can find on the side of this page. Please tell your friends and family, it will be greatly appreciated. God bless.


  1. cure4giacure4all says:

    Thank you for writing this. I will read and follow your journey. You are helping others keep faith, trust and strength..myself included. Team Gia is behind you all the way, Nick.

  2. Ally says:

    You have a beautiful outlook on life. I can’t wait to see where your journey takes you, and I will keep you in my prayers.

  3. sheldonbeilke says:

    I only knew little details about your story, but there is power in your words! It is truly an honor to know you Nick. Just like that t-shirt, punch cancer in the face! I’ll be praying and checking in on the regular. It is hard to stomach how many surgeries and radiation treatments you have to endure over the next months, it was even hard to read. Just know that we are praying and still hoping and believing.

  4. Shirley Lewis says:

    NIck, I work with your mom. I really like following your journey with you. You just amaze me on your outlook of life and your blogs. I pray each day our good Lord will guide you an your family and give you strength to get through this. I know right now the road seems rocky and hard to travel. With your view you are sure to overcome this nasty disease. Hope and prayers each day will get alittle easier for you and your family. Keep your faith in our Lord !!

  5. ThomasRoscoe says:

    I’m part of a college group in Nashville, TN and we have been praying for you and will continue to do so! You are a great writer! I look forward to reading more, as your story unfolds and as God works in your life.

  6. James says:

    You are a wonderful person you look on the bright side of things unlike me and I hope you live a long happy life.

  7. Amber Humes says:

    I work with your Mom, Nick. What a wonderful writer you are. Your positive outlook on life and what you are going through, will be sure to help you get through all of this. Keep your strong faith in God and he will be with you every step of the way. I look forward to following your blog….you are truly inspiring! And, Happy New Year to you! 🙂

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